There Are Some Days...

...when you love your children so much it hurt. There are some days when everything they do makes you smile, makes you feel so grateful to have them in your life. And then there are some days when you understand why there are some species of animals that eat their young....
Today, is a pretty good day. We are getting ready for the lake, Ellie is picking and choosing what she is going to take. Kailey slept in her bouncy seat last night. She slept better that she has yet. And she started smiling last night, so I know that she doesn't completely hate us. Ellie is so excited to go to the lake. She can't wait to take the boat. Matt didn't want to take it at first, cause you know, gas to haul it, gas to run it. But he said Ellie would be so upset if we didn't. I think that was a daddy copout, if you ask me.
I knew mommyhood to two would be difficult. I did not expect the new baby to be so needy though. Ellie has been such a trooper through it all. But earlier this week, Kailey was screaming, Ellie was crying because she got in trouble for something, and they both were quivering their little lips in the same way. And they both have a birthmark over their right eyes that, when they get firey mad, reddens. I do sometimes smile at this.
And now, I have a screaming baby again, and a preschooler that has asked me for the thirtith time what she can do now. Oh, for a warm beach and a fruity drink....